Saturday 31 October 2009

I forgot!

I forgot to post a picture of my outfit yesterday ^^ Sorry it's a bit blurry, the camera in my cellphone isn't the best :/
I'm tired again, and this time I really don't get it! I've started taking vitamins, I sleep like 9 hours a night and I've started to exercise more and all that should give me more energy but no. So last night I was out celebrating a birthday but I felt very tired at like 11 so as the others went somewhere else I went home and I fell asleep as soon as I got into bed. So weird. And today I have another birthday to celebrate, although we already did that on Thuesday so I guess I can skip today without my friend beeing mad at me... I just want to watch a movie and eat some pop corn ^^ I should call Annika and see if she's doing anything :)

As usual I have been obssessing about my hair and my money situation, I'm on a super strict budget since I'm trying to save enough money fo Japan next summer. I've been looking at flights and they are more expensive this year than last year :/ Got to work hard to get all the money I need.

~Rina~

Sunday 25 October 2009

Heyy

So as I've told you I've been feeling depressed and down lately and I'm starting to figure out why. Since elementary school I've had issues with abandonment and now it's coming back to haunt me. Some of my friends are leaving Finland to go study adn they are going far away, Japan and Australia. So I guess I feel like they're abandoning me even though I know thinking about it they're not but the subconscious is weird, right. So after realizing this I've been a bit calmer. Last night I went to dinner with my family and my uncle and grandpa also joined us. Talking to my uncle is always rewarding in a way that I don't get from may people because he has this weird insight if life that I guess only comes with age and he is already 65 so I guess you can call that having lots of life experience. Anyway talking to him made me realize I might be stuck with a false self-image, like I never define myself through school or any kind of educational perspective, I always define myself through music and sometimes friends and that's why I've had thoughts about uni not being my thing. I'm not sura about all of this but it's definately given me something to think about, and it also gave me a little boost to continue with my studies.

But enough about deep stuff :D The restaurant we had dinner at yesterday had two toilet seats in the girls bathroom :D

So random, I guess it's a joke cuz girls always go to the bathroom together :D

After dinner I went out partying with some friends that I hadn't seen in a while cuz I've been so busy. I had so much fun! And this is how I looked last night. I like my hair, it was so cute ^^


~Rina~

Thursday 22 October 2009

I'm so screwed...

I have a test tomorrow and I'm not going to pass it, fortunately you can always retake tests...
But some of you may be thinking why I even bother to study when I can't pass and the answer to that my dear readers is that I think I'll get better and pass them sometime. For now I'm trying not to sink into depression, some really alarming signs have come up :/ An my mom just came to ask if I've passed anything this semester, that really doesn't chear me up at all...

Something that I don't know how to react to is when someone tells me something bad happened, I mean, what am I supposed to say? I never know and end up saying something like "Umm, wow, I'm sorry to hear that..." And I feel like such a crappy friend when I can't chear up my friends. I've just noticed that life is so hard, you have to keep challenging yourself and grow as a person but with so much crap going on it's really hard. Lately I've been finding it even harder to be happy and I catch myself more often just wanting to cry for no obvious reason.

~Rina~

Monday 19 October 2009

tired...

I'm tired but so freakishly happy at the same time, it's weird what a few hot Japanese musiscians can do to you ;) This weekend was a rollercoaster of great and sucky stuff. The gigs were awesome and I almost cried when Screw walked to the stage on Saturday. Oh and Kazuki and Yuuto shared this incredible french kiss *___* But the arrengers of Tsukicon did not hold on to the schedule which sucks, I didn't for example see the whole aicle. concert because they started too early ;__; I missed a couple but at least I saw the rest of the live from a good place. The next band to play was Vistlip, the were really good even though I'd only heard one song from them :) The last one was Dio, and holy fuck Mikaru is HOT! There's nothing more to say than he is hot :D
Well I got to go now, I'll write more later, bye~
~Rina~

Thursday 15 October 2009

I am freaking out! I'm having a test tomorrow and I'm so not ready to take it. I'm seriously starting to think that uni is not my thing, I mean I keep failing this one test and I'm not putting in the work you should. But I do want to continue at uni, because it's really interesting and I've made some really good friends there. Anyway I hope to get past my issues and find the motivation to study :)

On another note, since it's autumn I've started to listen to some heavier rock again. For the past few weeks I've been listening to Slipknot and especially Psychosocial, it's an awesome song and the drum part is amazing, love it!

Also, I've decided to cut down on smoking because it's makin my skin terrible :/ and I went playing tennis with my mom yesterday and I noticed that I'm in really bad shape, so if not stop smoking completely atleast really not smoke if I really don't want one. I'm really gonna think before I get one out and smoke it. I've now been two days without it, haha yay me :D It's supposedly the third day that's the worst so today is gonna be just that :D I'll be okay though, I have to be :D

thanks, bye
~Rina~

Tuesday 13 October 2009

Hello!
I've been feeling a bit better today, I think my flu is almost gone :) But I haven't done enough studying :/ On Friday I have a test about like knowing where countries, cities etc are in the world, the only problem is there are 1500 of them to learn! Uh'oh... I hope I'll be okay...
Today I watched Phantom of the Opera ^^ Actually I'm not a big fan of the movie, it's bit too long but God do I love the music. I've always loved the score for POTO ever since I was really young. My mom has a cd with songs from Andrew Lloyd Webber's musicals and the POTO tracks are worn out ^^; haha
On another note, alot of my friends seem to have some sort of guy trouble, what is up with that? Seriously, thismay sound selfish, but I'm so over hearing about the same problems over and over again, I mean people who know they shouldn't do stuff but still do. Sometimes I feel like asking if they're stupid, but I don't, so instead I vent about it on my blog :D haha, oh well, I'll get over it.
Bye bye
~Rina~

Monday 12 October 2009

At work

So I'm at work now and I'm super tired, I just want to sleep. Oh and the weather is terrible, it's freezing cold with a really strong wind and rain mixed with snow, so it really is freezing.
I don't really know why but I've been feeling down for the last few days. And it's weird cuz I've been out with my friends and I've had a really nice time but I still can't shake this feeling. Maybe it's the autumn... I don't know but I certainly hope it's a passing thing cuz I have loads to do and I can't bee feeling this strenghtless all the time.
Anyway, some happier stuff now, Friday was so much fun. My friend had tickets to DTM, this gay club's 17th birthday party so until 10 pm the drinks were free! Haha, so immediately when we got in we just ordered so many drinks and the table we had with some friends was completely full of glasses XD we ended up not having to pay anything that night even though we were pretty drunk :)
On Saturday I went to 4 housewarming parties with uni friends, and had a really great time. It was when I was going home that night that I felt really depressed... Well yesterday I made food with my friend Pasi and it turned out super good, yum! I also ate candy, which I kind of had told myself I wouldn't do... Oh well.
And this weekend it's Tsukicon!! I can't wait! I'm actually going to be working there but it's okay cuz my boss is really laid back so I can go see stuff if I see something interesting. And the best part is...Screw and Aicle will be playing some shows, also Dio, Gothika, Sisen and Vistlip will be playing, it's going to be awesome! And my friend Tia will be sleeping over at my house and my parents are at our summer house so we'll have some partparty :D
Oh, writing about Tsukicon really cheered me up ^^ It's actually good to write a blog even though no-one reads it :D

xx
~Rina~

P.S. Old people need to learn some manners and treat young people like they would treat others.

Thursday 8 October 2009

Wiiii!!
There has been some craaazy stuff going on :) This weekend I went to this kinda cabin trip with my uni friends and it was crazy mad, everyone was so drunk ;D but I had a blast. Also because we are geography students we went to see some nature stuff to, e.g. we climbed up to the highest point of Varsinais-Suomi, don't know what is in English and wow it was like super steep and everyone had a hangover so that made it even harder. It was only 140 metres above seelvel tho...
And yesterday I just went to see the cue for MUCC with some friends and BAM we get 2 free tickets!! Like what the hell?! :D Anyway so there were three of us and only two tickets so I and Tia bought Sari a ticket as an early birthday present (note, Sari's birthday is in December :D) Anyway I'm so glad we did that because it was an awesome show! I was watching them play and I couldn't believe they were the ones playing that cool music :D now I'm a bit sore from headbanging but that's just the sign of good show :)

I haven't been posting pictures in a while but here's how I looked like yesterday BEFORE the concert ;D


An here's a beautiful pic from the cabin trip! You could drink from that lake ^^



C ya!!
~Rina~